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When they blow up at you: multiple One Piece men x reader
You make them upset and they lose their temper + how they apologize
Includes: Ace, Kid, Law, Sanji, Crocodile, Doflamingo
GN! Reader, established relationship
Warnings: language, crocodile is neglectful and doffy is toxic, both reader and kid are lowkey toxic together, ace sanji and lawâs parts are sweet thođ
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Ace
Heâs always pretty upbeat and tries not to show anger around you, but one day you make a joke that takes it too far. Your relationship had always been full of humor and you simply misunderstood what was acceptable to joke about and what wasnât. You know you messed up when Ace goes quiet and puts his head down. You put your hand on his shoulder and frantically try to apologize, but he clearly isnât having it as he stands and tries to walk away from you.
âAce, wait! Listen!â You call as you try to pull him back, eager to explain yourself and properly apologize. He suddenly turns around and, in front of everyone, begins to lecture you.
âWhy donât you ever take anything seriously?â
Your guilt quickly turns to anger at the hypocrisy of Aceâs words. It always seemed to you that no joke was âtoo farâ because of the way he so freely poked fun at you, your interests, and those you care about. How dare he pin this accusation on you?
âYouâre the one who canât take anything serious!â You respond, raising your voice louder than his.
Heâs basically yelling when he responds, âAt least I know where to draw the line!â
âWhat about all those times you made fun of me? Is it only an issue when I do it back?â
Everyone is staring at you two by this point, but all you can focus on is holding back tears when Ace yells, âI guess we just donât go well together!â He slams his hand on the table, âGood luck finding someone else whoâll put up with you for as long as I have!â
Ashamed and heartbroken, you rush to your room and cry into your pillow. It feels like an eternity before you finally hear a knock on your door. You donât respond but Ace opens it and lets himself in anyways, setting down his hat. He sits on the edge of your bed and breaks the silence with, âGood thing I stayed calm out there, right?â
Amazed that he still has the audacity to joke around, you sit up and scold, âAce!â
He holds up his arms defensively. âSorry, Sorry, Iâm ready to talk about it if you are. And for the record, I love putting up with you.â
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Kid
Your relationship was always explosive because of your captainâs temper, but he must have already been on edge today because this was worse than usual. Killer wanted some rest so Kid is trying to make dinner for the crew, but he absolutely sucks at cooking. He refuses to listen to your advice and tension is growing as you continue to try and help.
âStop being so controlling! Iâm the captain here!â
The smell of burnt food is getting stronger, and you canât help but take the pan off the burner yourself. âWeâre hungry. Besides, thereâs nothing wrong with just accepting help for once.â You try to keep your tone neutral to avoid a fight - which is clearly ineffective as Kid grabs you by the arm and pulls you outside of the kitchen.
âWhy are you so set on embarrassing me in front of my crew!?â He shouts, gripping your shoulders.
You roll your eyes and speak calmly to make him feel like heâs overreacting. âItâs not that big of a deal. It would be more embarrassing if nobody was able to eat because your ego is too big to let me help.â
Kid is infamously bad with words, so he just responds by cursing and shoving you with much more force than intended. You go tumbling back until your head hits the wall and you fall to the floor. Kid looks shocked but before he can kneel down to help, you shoot up and shout, âWhat the fuck was that!?!â
âI donât know!! Are you okay?â He yells back, panicked.
âNo! Iâm gonna tell Killer that youâre abusing me!â You scream, not realizing the whole ship can probably hear you two by now.
âNo!â Kid responds fearfully, one-upping your volume and holding you in place by your shoulders again. âI swear Iâll always listen to you from now on! I promise! Please donât tell on me, you know it was an accident!!â
Before you can scream back, the kitchen door swings open and you two stare at Killer like deer in headlights.
âGet in here and set the table. I knew you guys wouldnât be able to handle it.â
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Law
Law always stretches himself too thin between working late, taking care of his crew, and making sure they donât get themselves in too much trouble. He must have been losing a lot of sleep because of this, as heâs asking you to bring him his 4th cup of coffee today and itâs not even noon.
You tell him, âI donât think I should do that, babe. Iâm sorry. You should get some rest instead.â His under eye bags are especially dark today and his hair is messy.
âI have to get this done,â he responds calmly, though you can detect a hint of annoyance in his tone. âCan you at least get someone else to make it?â
When you go behind him and rub his shoulders, he sighs and leans back in his chair. He must be exhausted. âPlease, babe?â He asks once more.
âLaw, you of all people should know the importance of rest.â
He pulls away from your touch and crooks his neck to look in your eyes. âAnd you, of all people, should appreciate the work your captain does to keep this crew out of harmâs way.â He doesnât yell, but the scolding tone of his voice hurts you more than yelling ever could. He stands up and walks to the kitchen, presumably to make his own coffee, and you follow behind. âCanât you just give me some alone time for once?â He snaps.
Youâre growing increasingly frustrated at Lawâs stubborn attitude. âYou need to rest! Iâm not going to leave you alone when youâre putting your health at risk.â
âSometimes,â he grabs you by the chin and leans in, âI have to make sacrifices for this crew. Be thankful.â You canât help but start to tear up. His harsh words stung extra when he looked at you like that. Law lets go of you and his gaze softens when he realizes how upset heâs made you. The tone of the conversation immediately shifts. âSorry, I-â he pauses, âI didnât realize you cared that much.â
âOf course I care.â You cry. âI love you.â You pull him into a hug and he leans down to rest his chin on your shoulder.
âIâll take a nap if you promise to stop crying.â He whispers, rubbing your back.
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Sanji
âCan you add a dash of salt to the soup, love?â Asks your boyfriend. Heâs recently taken to including you while he cooks, which is an honor coming from someone who takes it so seriously. Heâs gentle, patient, and excessively romantic with you in every aspect of the relationship, though sometimes finds himself being a bit more firm when cooking. You waltz across the kitchen, handing over him a knife, stirring a pot, or cleaning dishes for Sanji, whose hand finds your waist each time you pass. You dip your finger into the sauce heâs making and give it a taste.
âItâs good, maybe a bit bland though,â you comment.
âNoted, head chef,â he teases back playfully while accepting your criticism and adding more seasoning. When you go to take another taste, your elbow knocks over an inconveniently placed jar of olive oil, spilling it into the sauce and all over the counter.
âShit! Iâm sorry Sanji, Iâll clean it up.â He looks a bit disappointed, but gives you a soft smile and pat on the back.
âDonât worry love, it happens,â his tone shifts to something more firm yet still gentle, âbut we only have one jar left, so try to be a bit more careful for me in the future, yea?â
âIt wonât happen again, promise.â Your mistake makes you shaky with nervousness because you know how seriously Sanji takes food waste. When you reach for a towel to clean up the oil, of course you accidentally knock over a pepper shaker. It falls to the ground and shatters, pepper corns bouncing all across the floor.
Panicked, you stutter out a pleading apology while you scramble to find a broom. âOh my god babe, Iâm so sorry, I donât know why Iâm so clumsy to-â
âHow about you just leave the cooking to me.â
You look up, surprised at his stern voice. He doesnât look back at you, just grips the handle of his mixing spoon angrily. Your heart drops into your stomach in shame.
âGo find someone else to help me clean up this mess, okay?â You can tell heâs trying his absolute hardest to contain his disappointment, but itâs still evident in his tone. You silently leave the kitchen, embarrassed tears stinging your eyes.
You try to calm yourself down in your room before dinner, you donât want any of your crew mates to know about your humiliating mistakes. Not even five minutes after you had left the kitchen though, your door swings open. Sanji is on his knees with a bouquet of flowers and big puppy dog eyes looking up at you.
âI have no words to describe how sorry I am for getting upset at you. My anger was a bigger mistake than any amount of spilled food.â Your emotions quickly turn upside down and you laugh at the dramatic display.
âSanji! I should be the one apologizing!â You run up to him and pull him into a tight hug. You reassure him, âItâs okay to get frustrated sometimes. Iâm not mad!â He lets out a relieved sigh and squeezes you tight.
Smelling the bouquet, you ask, âWhere did you even get these?â
âI have a stash,â and you both burst into laughter.
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Crocodile
It seems like all he does is work, and youâre fed up with it. You get so bored sitting around in Crocodileâs mansion all day while heâs locked up in his office. Luckily, he left the door ajar today and youâll be able to force him to give you the attention you deserve. You slink through the door and hoist yourself up onto the edge of his oversized desk.
âWhat.â He says gruffly, not looking up from his papers.
âIâm booored,â you whine, swinging your feet, âwanna go swimming?â
Crocodile sighs and rubs his temple in annoyance, still not looking up. âGo fetch me a drink and Iâll consider it.â
âNo you wonât!â You argue, âyou always say that!â
He slams a fist on the table and finally looks up to meet your eyes. âMaybe I would want to spend more time with you if you werenât so whiny! Now go!â
Youâre shocked and hurt by his unexpected anger and leave defeated, looking back one last time to see him continuing his work, seemingly unbothered.
Later that night, as youâre lying in bed reading, you hear the door softly creak open. Crocodile is holding an unopened expensive perfume with a ribbon tied around it.
âI know I havenât had a lot of time for you lately, and Iâm sorry.â He sighs, setting the gift on your nightstand and undoing his tie. âWeâll go swimming next week, I promise.â He places a gentle kiss on your forehead before getting into his robe.
As you drift off to sleep, you look at the various expensive gifts heâs gotten you as apologies, knowing he will never follow through with his promises.
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Doflamingo
Making Doflamingo angry is always the last thing you want to do, but his immature sense of entitlement can be infuriating. The two of you were watching the sunset by the poolside and discussing your latest reads while waiting on a servant to bring another bottle of wine. You didnât notice how long it was taking until he brought it up.
âWhatâs taking that damn worm so long?â Whatâs so hard about fetching a bottle of wine?â The veins in his forehead started to bulge, a telltale sign of his annoyance.
You take his hand in yours and rub your thumb into his palm, trying desperately to keep him calm. âIâm sure itâll be here soon, Doffy. Letâs not worry about it for now - keep telling me about your book.â
He could see right through you. Any attempt at influencing his emotions always only made it worse.
âDonât baby me. This is an act of utter insolence and I donât know why you expect me to tolerate it.â He slaps your hand away. âIâll give that rat a piece of my mind once it gets here.â As much as you want to just leave it at that and enjoy the rest of your evening, your unrest with Doflamingoâs behavior has been growing for weeks and you speak before you can think.
âCanât we just have one nice evening where you donât have to abuse someone over the tiniest thing? Itâs just some wine, weâll live.â Youâre terrified to see his frown turn into a wide grin as he starts to laugh.
âHave you forgotten who I am? Who you have the privilege of being close to?â With one sweep of his arm he knocks your glass off the table, shattering it and making you jump in fear. âGet out of my sight,â He hisses.
Offended by his quick switch-up, you bargain, âDoffy, canât we just talk abou-â
âOut!â He yells. âAnd thatâs Young Master to you!â
You scurry inside the palace, knowing things could get ugly if you chose to stick around. You wait all night for him to come knocking on your door with a superficial apology, even a passive aggressive one, but he never shows.
That petty man child was avoiding you. A whole week goes by before you even see his face. As youâre playing chess with DiamantĂ© (whoâs even more insufferable) to pass the time, you find yourself wishing you were with Doflamingo instead. As if on cue, he struts in and ruffles your hair from behind.
âWhat do you say we go share a drink together, just you and me, hm?â He muses, rubbing your shoulders as if he hadnât just disappeared for a week. Your anger towards him subsides at his touch. You know you only feel this way because of his manipulative charm, but you let yourself love Doffy anyway.
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Happy 43rd Birthday to The Princess of Wales -January 9th 2025.
On this ninth day of 2025, I would like to wish the Princess of Wales a very happy birthday. 2024 was brutal for her and I hope she has a brilliant and healthy year. She fought against cancer last year and once again she showed her strength and determination to fight for her children and her husband who also supported her a lot. But at the beginning of the year, she also had to stay strong while idiots spread disgusting theories without knowing what she was going through. However, it is because of her strength that she is truly an inspiration. She won't stop impressing us even though she's human and must have rough days sometimes. No need to mention how she is such a gorgeous, amazing woman, simple, natural, kind and attentive to everyone she meets. She lives up to her title of âThe Children's Princessâ so well because she is so gentle with children and works hard with her project The Early Childhood for the healthy development of children. She is also a loving and devoted mother and she is very present in the education of her children as well as a loving wife who supports her husband and obviously loves him.
Catherine, thank you already for everything you have done and will continue to do. You are a true ray of sunshine despite what you have been through. You are so loved and you will be a brilliant Queen. We love you so much.
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When We Collide
Chapter 14
Chapter Summary: You wake to Agatha's unsettling yet impossibly grounding presence, unspoken questions threatening to unravel a fragile moment. And just like that, walls begin to crack.
Word Count: 2.8k
A/N (very long, sorryyy): I still canât believe it, but here we are. After exactly one month since the last chapter was published, Iâm officially back! I canât promise the creative block Iâve been struggling with for When We Collide is completely gone, but Iâm really trying, and Iâm so happy to continue this story.
Before you dive in, I just want to take a moment to make a small dedication:
Over the past week, Iâve received an overwhelming amount of love and support that I never expected. Moots, strangers, and even anonymous readers stepped forward in the comments of my update posts on Tumblr or slid into my DMs to show their appreciation and encouragement. You know who you are. Itâs because of all of you that, in just over 24 hours, I managed to write an entire chapter after being stuck for a whole month. You gave me an incredible boost of energy and motivation. So, this chapter is for you. To my moots, followers, and each dedicated reader of When We Collide. To everyone who messaged me privately or left a comment on a post or a fic. To those who, even without reaching out directly, have always supported me with their thoughts and good vibes, waiting patiently for an update and never abandoning this story. What youâve done, and continue to do, for me is amazing. Youâve filled me with so much love and support, and I truly hope this chapter (and the ones to comeâyes, theyâre coming, hehe) can serve as a proper thank-you.
Itâs true that writing should primarily be for yourself, but when you receive this kind of support and encouragement, it becomes something truly special to write for others too.
Let me know what you think of the chapter, and thank you from the bottom of my heart! đ
PS: SpoilerâI literally felt my heart break while writing a certain piece of dialogue. Had to pause, pick up the pieces, and keep going. Sorry yâall, I couldnât resist đ
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You stir awake to the faint glow of the early afternoon, the light filtering softly through the edges of the curtains. For a brief, suspended moment, your mind lingers in the haze of sleep, the kind where nothing feels quite real, and youâre not entirely sure where you are. Then the weight registers.
The warm, undeniable weight of someone pressed against you.
Your breath catches, your body locking in place as you become acutely, painfully aware of Agathaâs head resting on your shoulder.
Her dark hair brushes against your neck, faintly ticklish, while her arm lies draped across your waist.
You donât dare move. Not even a twitch.
Every nerve in your body stands at attention, screaming for you to do something. But you lie there, frozen, your heart hammering so loudly youâre sure itâll wake her. The thought of turning your head to look at her fills you with a mixture of terror and curiosity, and youâre too paralyzed to face either.
You tryâreally tryâto focus on the practicalities. How did this even happen? Youâd climbed into bed hours ago, stiff as a board, determined to keep your distance. Youâd stayed on your side, curled up awkwardly, staring at the wall like it held the answers to every question you were too afraid to ask.
But then sleep had come. Or at least something like itâa restless tangle of half-dreams and unconscious movements, shifting and turning under the weight of the nightâs tension.Â
At some point, the gap between you must have closed. At some point, her arm must have found its way across you.
A thousand excuses rush through your mind, each more fragile than the last, as if rationalizing the moment could make the closeness disappear. But they all crumble, leaving behind one undeniable truth: you donât want to move. Not really.
You tell yourself itâs fear. Fear of waking her. Fear of the look on her face if she realized the position youâre in. Confusion? Annoyance? Disgust? The thought twists your stomach into painful knots. But beneath the fear, another emotion lingers, quieter and far more dangerous.
It feels⊠good.
You hate how much you notice it, how your senses seem to betray you with every passing second. The softness of her hair brushing your neck, the heat of her body radiating against your side, the faint pressure of her arm resting on youâit all feels far too natural, far too easy, like some cruel joke the universe decided to play.
You squeeze your eyes shut, willing yourself to move, to shift, to put some distance between you. But your body doesnât listen. Youâre too hyper-aware of every tiny detail, of how close she is, of how safe she feels.
A shaky exhale escapes you, your chest rising just enough to disturb the delicate stillness between you. Agatha stirs slightly in her sleep, a soft sound escaping her lips as her arm tightens instinctively around you.
Your heart practically leaps into your throat.
You swallow hard, trying to convince yourself that this is normal. That thereâs nothing strange or inappropriate about lying here like this. That it doesnât mean anything. That itâs just an accident, a coincidence. Thatâs all.
Itâs fine. Everything is fine. Except itâs not.Â
Because no matter how much you want to believe that this is accidental, that sheâs completely unaware, a small, traitorous part of you wonders what it would mean if she wasnât.
You try to focus on the ceiling, on the faint creak of the house settling around you, on anything other than her. But itâs impossible. Because no matter how still you stay, no matter how hard you try to quiet your thoughts, Agathaâs presence fills every corner of the roomâand every corner of you.
Your breath hitches as you finally, finally let yourself turn your head. Itâs tentative at first, a small, hesitant shift of movement.Â
Your chin almost brushes her forehead, and the nearness of herâso close you could count the faint freckles scattered across her skinâleaves you utterly undone.Â
For a moment, you canât think, canât breathe. The sight of her like this, her face so close to yours, is enough to send your thoughts spiraling.
Your gaze moves carefully, tracing her features as if each one might dissolve into smoke if you looked too quickly.
Sharp and soft. The words loop in your mind like a mantra, and you canât stop staring. The sharp lines of her jaw and cheekbones, the delicate curve of her lipsâthey blend danger and allure in a way that leaves you off-balance, like she was never meant to be anything less than both.
Your let your thoughts drift, unbidden, to what you know about her. And, perhaps more troubling, to what you donât.
Youâve spent all your life in the same coven, shared the same spaces, breathed the same air, yet sheâs always been distant. A figure just out of reach, admired and feared in equal measure by most.
You sift through your memories, trying to piece together fragments, to make sense of the person sprawled across you now.
Everyone has been speaking of Agathaâs power in hushed tones since you were childrenâthe raw, unpredictable force of her magic. How it brims with potential but defies control. Even the older witches have always been wary of her, watching her like a storm poised on the horizon.
And then thereâs the story. The one no one speaks of outright but that lingers in fragments, carried around by rumors and half-truths.
It was just over a couple of years ago. One of the daughters of your motherâs friendsâa girl you barely knew, though her name still echoes through the village homes and hallsâwas found dead in the woods. Cold, lifeless. Drained.
The whispers said it was Agatha.
They claimed she had taken the girlâs power, siphoned it like a flame devouring a candlewick. That she left her there, alone in the woods, to die.Â
But that girl wasnât just anyone. She was Agathaâs best friend.
The rumors painted it as a calculated act of power, a way to send a message and solidify her place as the rightful heir to the covenâs legacy. They said her magic demanded sacrifice, and she hadnât hesitated to give one.
But that version of the story never sat right with you.
Even more so now, with Agatha asleep beside you, her head resting on your shoulder, her breathing slow and even in sleep. The idea of this Agathaâthe Agatha who clings to you in her slumberâbeing the monster the rumors describe feels impossible to reconcile.
Youâve always wondered if there was more to the story. If the truth had been buried beneath layers of fear, jealousy, and Evanoraâs carefully orchestrated manipulations.Â
Because if thereâs one thing you know about Evanora Harkness, itâs that sheâd burn the truth to ashes to protect her image.
The slow rise and fall of your chest brushes faintly against Agathaâs arm, jolting you back to the present. You exhale shakily, your gaze locking once again on her face.
She looks so⊠harmless. The thought slips into your mind unbidden, and you canât stop yourself from clinging to it. Here, now, in your bed, tangled against you, she does look harmless. Innocent, even.
And yet⊠the stories remain. The danger, the sharpness, the furyâitâs still there, lurking just beneath her momentary serene exterior.Â
You should move. You really should. Break the moment, pull away, regain the distance youâre supposed to have. But you donât. You canât. Because for all the danger and mystery that surrounds Agatha Harkness, thereâs something else, too.
Something that keeps you rooted in place, your gaze drinking her in, feeling her presence in every breath you take.
The stillness is interrupted by a faint shift. Agatha stirs against you, her body shifting slightly as her fingers twitch where her hand rests near your waist. Her breathing changes, no longer the even, steady rhythm of sleep but something shallower, more conscious.
You freeze, your own breath caught in your chest. Her head lifts just a fraction before settling again, her hair brushing against your neck in a way that sends an involuntary shiver down your spine. For one agonizing moment, you wonder if sheâll pull away.
But she doesnât.
Instead, Agatha lets out a soft exhale, her lashes fluttering as her eyes blink open, slow and heavy with sleep. Thereâs a beatâa single, suspended second where her gaze adjusts, flitting from the faint light of the room to you.
Her arm remains draped across your waist, though her fingers flex slightly, testing their place. Her lips twitch, just barely, into something resembling a smirk.
âIs this how you treat all your guests, or am I just special?â she murmurs, her voice husky and rough from sleep, the teasing lilt sharp enough to make your stomach flip.
The words pull you from your haze of panic into full-blown mortification, heat rising to your face as you open your mouth, then close it, scrambling for a response.Â
âYouâyou asked me to stay!â you stammer, your voice breaking as you shift just a little, glaring at her. âDonât twist this intoââ
Agatha cuts you off with an expression so faux-innocent you want to scream, her tone light but laced with mockery.Â
âDid I?â she muses, her brow quirking as though sheâs genuinely pondering it. âHmm. Doesnât sound like me.â
Your jaw drops.Â
Your heart hasnât stopped pounding since she stirred, and her smirk only makes it worse. The audacity, the smugness. Sheâs so calm, like waking up tangled together is just another morning for her.
For you? Itâs a waking nightmareâor at least, thatâs the excuse you cling to as you try to suppress the heat that is completely taking hold of your whole body. Your fists clench at your sides, and your frustration boils over.Â
âYou did! You saidââ you stop yourself, huffing in exasperation as her smirk turns into a full-blown grin. âUgh, youâre impossible.â
âAnd youâre far too fun to annoy.â she counters shifting slightly, her arm sliding away from your waist as she props herself up on one elbow.
You bite back another retort, your face burning as you turn your head to look anywhere but at her. Sheâs infuriating. Smug and sharp-tongued andâclose. Too close.
The silence stretches for a beat, and you take a deep breath, willing yourself to calm down.Â
It doesnât help that sheâs still watching you, her gaze a quiet weight against your skin. You can feel it without lookingâhow her smirk lingers, how her eyes flicker between amusement and something unreadable.
She shifts again, finally breaking the silence.Â
âWell,â she says softly, her voice still carrying that teasing lilt, âif this is how you handle all your guests, I canât imagine they stay very long.â
Your breath hitches, and you glance at her despite yourself, catching the faintest flicker of something beneath her grin. Sheâs teasing, sureâbut thereâs an edge to it, a quiet discomfort sheâs trying to mask.
You huff again, crossing your arms and refusing to let her get the last word. âMaybe they donât. But you did ask me to stay, so if you have complaints, take it up with yourself.â
Her grin softens slightly, but she doesnât respond. Instead, she leans back a little, her hand brushing against the blanket as she rests her weight on her palm. Her gaze flickers briefly to the window, her expression almost thoughtful.
You watch her for a moment, your own irritation ebbing away as curiosity takes its place. Sheâs still infuriating, still impossibleâbut thereâs something else, too. Something quieter.Â
You should let it go. The tension, the momentâitâs already too much and you both literally just woke up. But the question lodges itself in your throat, unspoken words buzzing like a swarm. You donât even mean to say it. It just⊠slips out. âWhat really happened that day?â
Agathaâs head tilts slightly, her eyes cutting back to yours in a sharp, measured motion.Â
âWhat?â she asks, her tone casual, but thereâs a sudden wariness in her gaze, the edge of a blade being drawn.
You hesitate, regretting the words almost immediately, but itâs too late now.Â
âThe girl.â you clarify, your voice quieter than you intended. âThe one they say you⊠killed.â
The room seems to still, the air shifting as the words settle between you.Â
Agatha doesnât move, her expression unreadable, but the flicker of something raw flashes behind her eyesâa shadow that vanishes almost as quickly as it appears.
Her lips curve into a smirk that doesnât quite reach her eyes.Â
âReally?â she drawls, leaning back slightly, the picture of feigned nonchalance. âThatâs what you want to talk about? Here? Now?â
Your stomach twists at the sharpness of her tone, but you donât look away.Â
âI justâŠâ You pause, choosing your words carefully. âI just want to know the truth.â
Agatha lets out a soft, bitter laugh, shaking her head as she looks away again.Â
âThe truthâŠâ she mutters, her voice low, almost mocking. âYouâre the first person to actually ask me for it, you know?â
The words hit you like a slap, leaving you momentarily speechless.Â
âWait.â you say, your voice barely above a whisper. âNo oneâs everâ?â
âNo.â Agatha cuts in sharply, her tone laced with dry amusement that barely conceals the bitterness beneath.âWhy would they? They already think they know. They donât need my version.âÂ
She scoffs, her lips curling into a sardonic smirk.
Your chest tightens painfully at the words, the weight of what sheâs said settling over you like a heavy fog. If no oneâs ever asked for her version of the story, if no oneâs cared enough to hear the truth⊠then everything youâve heardâthe whispers, the rumors, the storiesâmight not be true. Or at least, not entirely.
Agathaâs gaze flickers back to you, piercing and unreadable, as if she can sense where your thoughts are heading.Â
âI know what they say.â she continues, her voice quieter now, colder. âSome of itâs lies, some of itâs not.â
Your breath catches, her words hanging between you like a challenge, daring you to press further. And you do.Â
âBut if not all of itâs trueâŠâ you ask, your voice trembling slightly, â⊠then why?â
You hesitate, the question twisting in your chest before it finally escapes. âWhy do you let them believe those things about you, hmm?â
That stops her cold.
Her gaze locks on you, her expression sharp and unyielding, but thereâs something flickering beneath the surfaceâsomething fragile and dangerous and far too human.
For a moment, you swear you see something shatter behind the mask she wears so flawlessly. And when she finally speaks, her whispered answer tears through the silence like thunder.
âBecause the truth is too awful.â
The words hang in the air, and for a moment, all you can do is stare at her. The rawness in her voice, the vulnerability she so desperately tries to hide, steals the breath from your lungs.
But you donât back down. Not now.
âMaybe.â you say quietly, your voice softening but steady. âBut I donât think itâs worse than the lies, than the stories people tell.â
Her head tilts slightly, her eyes narrowing as she studies you. The tension in her shoulders doesnât ease, but thereâs something in her gazeâa flicker of hesitation, of consideration.
âYouâre persistent.â she mutters, the edge returning to her voice, though itâs quieter now.
âAnd youâre exhausting.â you reply, trying to keep your tone casual despite the knot in your chest tightening with every passing second. âBut since it looks like weâre stuck togetherâand youâre literally in my bedâyou might as well tell me.â
You know the truth, though: youâre not really stuck together. Agatha could leave anytime she wantedâsheâs clever, resourceful, and probably already thought of four different ways to slip out unnoticed, if she needed or wanted to.
But you also suspect that getting Agatha Harkness to open up requires more than simple patience. She needs to feel corneredânot with malice, but with intent. She has to know that someone is paying attention, that someone cares enough to ask, and that walking away wonât make the questions disappear. So you hold her gaze, refusing to let the moment slip away.
Agatha exhales sharply, the sound laced with frustration as she rubs a hand over her face. For a long, agonizing moment, you think she might retreat entirely. But then her hand falls, and she looks at you again.
And just like that, the walls begin to crack.
#agatha harkness x reader#agatha harkness x you#agatha harkness x female reader#agatha x reader#agatha x you#agatha x y/n#agatha harkness fanfic#agatha all along fanfic#aaa fanfic#when we collide
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đđđ . ( a collection of dialogue prompts from the film the hobbit : the desolation of smaug . adjust phrasing as necessary . )
[Cut for length.]
this is no chance meeting , is it , [ name ] ?
take back your homeland .
what if i were to help you reclaim it ?
that's not the worst of it .
we have another problem .
what did i tell you ? quiet as a mouse .
will you just listen ? i'm trying to tell you there's something else out there .
the bear is unpredictable , the man can be reasoned with .
come away from there , it's not natural . none of it .
it's obvious , he's under some dark spell .
you'll be safe here tonight ... i hope .
we grow in number , we grow in strength .
death will come to all .
there are others like you ?
you're running out of time .
a darkness lies upon that forest .
i would not venture there except in great need .
go now while you have the light .
this forest feels ... sick . as if a disease lies upon it .
something moves in the shadows unseen , hidden from our sight .
if our enemy has returned , we must know .
i would not do this unless i had to .
you've changed , [ name ] .
you must stay on the path . do not leave it . if you do , you'll never find it again .
is there no end to this accursed forest ?
we're going around in circles , we are lost .
the sun . we have to find the sun .
we're being watched .
they're growing bolder .
not just a thief , but a liar as well .
i myself suspect a more prosaic motive .
i have seen how you treat your friends .
you turned away from the suffering of my people .
a hundred years is a mere blink in the life of an elf . i'm patient . i can wait .
did he offer you a deal ?
shh ! there are guards nearby .
you were supposed to be leading us out , not further back in !
are you mad ? they'll find us .
please . please , you must trust me .
this is not a nice place to meet .
why now , [ name ] ? i don't understand .
a human sorcerer could not summon such evil .
in our blindness , the enemy has returned .
the enemy is preparing for war .
i started this . i cannot forsake them , they are in grave danger .
you want me to cast my friends aside ?
i think we've outrun the orcs .
we've no weapons to defend ourselves .
do it again , and you're dead .
what makes you think i would help you ?
no doubt you have some hungry mouths to feed .
oh , come on - enough of the niceties .
i would like to know who you are . and what you're doing in these lands .
we need food , supplies ... weapons . can you help us ?
i'd wager there are ways to enter that town unseen .
for that , you'd need a smuggler .
there was more he could have told us .
i don't care what he calls himself , i don't like him .
we don't have to like him , we just have to pay him .
i've been bled dry by this adventure ! and what have i seen for my investment ?
if you value your freedom , you'll do as i say .
folk in this town are suffering .
you'd do well to remember ; we know where you live .
it's a small town , [ name ] , everyone knows where everyone lives .
who would have the nerve to question my authority ?
you promised us weapons .
death ! that is what you'll bring upon us .
have you forgotten what happened to [ name / location ] ?
let us not be so quick to lay blame .
join us when you're healed .
[ name ] , you belong with the company .
i belong with my brother .
we have no time to wait , we're on our own .
the evil that is hidden here ... i command it reveal itself .
you have keen eyes , [ name ] .
let all those who doubted us rue this day !
i know these walls ... these halls , this stone .
i do not know what you'll find down there .
it never ceases to amaze me . the courage of hobbits .
if there is in fact a live dragon down there , don't waken it .
come , now ... don't be shy . step into the light .
there is something about you , something you carry .
there you are , thief in the shadows .
i did not come to steal from you .
do you think flattery will keep you alive ?
what else do you claim to be ?
truly , you are mistaken .
you have nice manners , for a thief and a liar .
i know the smell and taste of dwarf .
they are drawn to treasure like flies to dead flesh .
did you think i did not know this day would come ?
you should leave us .
and go where ? there is nowhere to go .
the dragon , it's going to kill us .
i kill where i wish , when i wish .
my armor is iron , no blade can pierce me .
i need you to distract the guards .
time to do what , to get killed ?
yes , i'm afraid . i'm afraid for you .
you're not yourself .
the darkness is coming ... it will spread to every corner of the land .
you were only ever a means to an end .
i will not part with a single coin . not one piece of it .
your reputation precedes you .
you have no equal on this earth .
i think our little game ends here .
so tell me , thief ... how do you choose to die ?
we've given him the slip .
there may be a way out .
it's our only chance , we have to try .
i've heard tales of the wonders of elvish medicine .
that was a privilege to witness .
i will not die like this . cowering . gasping for breath .
if this is to end in fire , then we will all burn together .
perhaps it is time i paid them a visit .
this isn't their fault !
you care about them , do you ? good . then you can watch them die .
i am taking back what you stole .
you will take nothing from me .
i laid low your warriors of old . i instilled terror in the hearts of men .
this is not your kingdom . these are dwarf lands .
revenge ? revenge ?! i will show you revenge !
i am fire . i am death .
what have we done ?
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some more LU things that throw me for a loop,,
An artist I follow, wilimia, started a LU dnd AU, and then mentioned wanting to make it it's own thing. Shortly after, they received an ask,
"I'd be down for un lu-ing the dnd boys cause I got lu blocked ad hate how it affects most links meet aus, so yeah. If you do that I'd reach non lu audience. Most loz fandom doesn't follow lu blogs"
and idk, I get it, but it's also hard to read. So much of Wilimia's art is LU. It seems like something they found, and still do, find joy in creating for--and for years, too--longer than I've been in the fandom. "Most loz fandom doesn't follow lu blogs." Most loz fandom wouldn't have any interest in the majority of the art Wilimia's shared? Anon would prefer it to be non-lu? It reads to me a little like putting down or dismissing the art just because it's LU. Wilimia's art is amazing. I admire it so much. Their ideas are wonderful, too. And like many other pieces of LU fanart, there's a lot of exploration of comparing and contrasting the games, or analyzing the games, borrowing the LU cast, without explicit connection to the events of the comic itself. So much incredible creativity missed, because it is LU. LU's not for everyone. To each their own, I guess.
But I feel like so much interesting insight into the games is lost if LU fanwork is disregarded simply for being LU.
I also struggle with feeling like I have to choose an audience. I have ideas for pre-LU comics that would tell stories of fun moments from the games, during an adventure--but I want to use the LU heroes because I care more for those interpretations of Link. I'm blending my own game experience and opinion of that Link with what's been provided by the fandom.
I think the stories are fun and worth sharing! However, what tag do I use? It's the Linked Universe design and character, but it's also me, but it's also not Linksmeet or the LU adventure, really. It's LU, it's not LU, it's gen loz, it's both. And yet you'd get scolded for posting LU in the gen loz tags. I feel as though I must choose a side.
For example: there's a moment in OoS where a woman asks you to help her in exchange for a shovel. I got the shovel and then immediately dug up the entire map chunk surrounding her house. It would make for a good comic! But do I make it LU inspired or gen loz? I'd probably use a slightly more generic design for Link (Legend) anyways because he would be younger. Honestly, I could probably get away with barely changing the design at all, tag it as gen loz, and be praised for it.
There's a huge double standard when it comes to LU and Linksmeets. Both argue that not everyone has played all the games. All the interpretations and designs are unique and, at times, should be read as their own aus without worrying too much about adherence to the game or specific comic canon. Characterization and knowledge varies by writer. At the same time, no one person owns specific design elements or traits. Don't worry too much about being too similar. Let people make what they want. Every new instance adds to the wider understanding of the character and is therefore valuable.
Yet, by the people who dislike LU and its fandom and favor other Linksmeets, in LU fandom it's seen as an excuse, and in Linksmeets and gen loz it's seen as a strength.
The character of my comic could barely be LU Legend, and yet if it is LU even in name only, it is disregarded and unwelcome. The character could draw strong influence from Jojo's designs or LU fandom, and if I change one thing only but claim it as my own, it would be praised and defended.
Analysis and discussion in the LU fandom (especially from around 2020) brought me a better appreciation and understanding of the heroes and game similarities then any other kind of online fan created material had.
So for my mini comic- and going off of the anon's ask- what do I do?
I want my work to be seen. I feel like it is valuable to be seen by anyone who enjoys the games. I want to inspire people who see the comic to think more about the games and to create. I don't particularly care through what lense they connect with my gen loz / nebulously LU work--if they apply the situation to their own game experience, gen loz, or to any Linksmeet--if my work has connected with someone- has broadened someone's understanding of a game or character- then my goal has been met. Obviously use the correct tags and credit where credit it due, but if I am making pre-adventure or gen loz stuff, then I want to inspire. Write fic! Add the headcanon to your own! Just like- if you make something based off an idea of mine, include me! We are all building off of each other's stories. It is all inspiration. It's all the same soup.
There is no Linksmeet element. And yet, in my heart, I know the character will become some personal variation of LU Legend, influenced by a variety of fanwork, because that's the interpretation I favor.
If it's tagged gen loz it reaches the broader loz and Linksmeets audiences. If it's tagged LU then it stays within the sub fandom I know and care for. The thing is--it's a pre-adventure story, so it's not solidly one or the other. I don't want to tag it gen loz and have LU fans feel they aren't allowed to think of it as LU Legend. I don't want to tag it as LU and have it be missed by so many people, or have gen loz / linksmeet fans feel they aren't allowed to think to think of it as their own characters either. However, also, why should I be creating for an audience who would disregard so much of my and other's works?
Mina of Mina's Linkverse's recent posts have thrown me for a loop again. She's shared a headcanon post about Twilight Princess Link that delves into how Link, given his background in Ordon, might feel about turning into a wolf. What struggles, but also acceptance and joy, can be found in it. It's beautiful. I'd love to add it as another perspective into my understanding of TP Link--both solely within the game context and also more broadly across a variety of Linksmeets. It's one more way to further appreciate things I already enjoy. However, Mina opened the post with "Dont tag as L/U". Okay, don't tag, but am I allowed to borrow this and apply it to LU Twilight? I relate to it most strongly through that lense. It's a general loz post, and LU is loz. What if I were to apply it to Mina's Fangs, or Em's Wolf, or Frulle's Twilight? If I were to write a LU fic or draw a comic and tagged Mina as inspiration would she take offense? Would it be less of an offense if it was anything but?
Am I as a LU fan allowed to take inspiration from this and put it into LU fanwork? What about LU fanwork that goes more strongly into exploring these themes or situations from the games instead of the comic itself?
It just feels kind of feels like a whole perspective or group is being excluded. I feel like I am being excluded and that I am unwelcome. But, maybe that's just me being an entitled LU fan who thinks everything belongs to them and needs to learn to stay in their lane.
I've considered making multiple versions of the same comic. One that uses the LU design and tag, and one that does not, so that I'm able to reach and be appreciated by both audiences. But, I don't want to have to choose. There would be no difference in the comic but character design and name. And yet, that's all the means necessary to be completely disregarded.
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I saw some of the Reddit drama regarding the Astarion subreddits (the spawn sub vs. OF) and it's really saying a lot how most Spawn fans care more about AA/AA fans and being free to bash him however they see fit on the main sub, but allegedly the evil moderators are censoring their opinions and are not allowing AA criticism so they are transforming the UA sub into an anti AA one. It's amazing how they don't realize their criticism actually consists in telling AA fans they are abuse apologists who spread misinformation on purpose (the bride theory) and media illiterate lmao. Yeah, I wonder why that's not allowed on the main sub. Perhaps they should reflect on the state of their sub which can be resumed to "I like UA because fuck AA and AA fans".
Heh... funny I got a message about this when I did, because I was quietly observing the drama when it happened. Well, sort of drama. Really, just the usual cliched "anti-AA person must save the igorant AA fans from their own selves via condescending and patronizing vagueposting" situation.
For context... An anti-AA person made posts to a few Astarion and BG3 subs, challenging the validity of the bride theory with zero context or reason, which unsurprisingly fostered negativity and arguments. They had other negative comments on semi-related posts which didn't make their case better. Then they argued with the OF mods about their arguing with other users and was banned after reporting others out of spite.
But looks like the person tried to run to the spawn sub to get validation for arguing with the mods, but I don't think it went very well lol
From what I could observe, they got a lot of downvotes and even comments directly calling them (and their aggression) out. People admitted they joined to gush over Spawn and their Tavs, not seethe over AA and his fans. It was quite refreshing to see. Even moreso, seeing the mods of the sub create a new rule to not dogpile on the mods of other BG3 subs. So perhaps the situation is getting better.
Still strange that "a place to talk about AA as an abuse narrative" is one of the main focus rules of that sub, buuut I'll take the small victories. Any time people are pointing out the AA fan witch-hunt nonsense as what it is (nonsense), it means there's a positive shift happening.
Unfortunately (especially in creative realms), there will always be argumentive people who just want to argue that their vision and perspective is the only one that matters/exists, and they believe it too. But maybe the direct heat on AA fans will die down or... Die out completely (one can wish đ©).
That said! That whole situation makes me wonder...
A gaggle of anti-AA Redditers were suspended from the site for brigading (organized downvoting) of positive AA posts and comments. I'm wondering if the user who made that rant post is one of them with a fresh account. The timeline kinda match up and they bring up the same exact talking arguing points đ€
Idk, but for now I'm glad to see normal spawn fans speaking up against the anti-AA nonsense finally. I think it's at the point everyone is just getting sick of it lol
#astarion discourse#ascended astarion#lord astarion#astarion#ask#anon ask#i am getting to all my messages very slwoly lol#*slowly
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The clans hang out in an everybody lives au and the conversation gets to love interests. Some don't want to reveal the names of who they like and instead describes them. MikoRei's description of each other sounds like insults, SaruMi doesn't recognize their descriptions, KuroShiro has Shiro having fun with this, and IzuSeri is the only normal one and they weren't hiding the other person's name.
Someoneâs gotta be the adults in this conversation okay XD Imagine Everybody Lives AU and maybe the cast are having like a meeting at Shiroâs dorm just to go over the state of things in the post-Slate world. As theyâre talking Neko comes in, having just finished up her classes for the day, and she attaches herself to Shiro as she asks if theyâre having âgirl talk.â Kukuri was telling her about this, that everyone sits in a big ring and discusses their love lives and other things. Shiro says this isnât quite the same but he would be happy to discuss his love life, he has a beautiful wife who cooks him delicious meals every day. Neko is intrigued by the food part but curious about the âwifeâ mention, Kuroh steps out of the kitchen and clears his throat as he menacingly states that he perhaps has interest in someone but that person should learn to be more conscious of the one making his food. Shiro laughs sheepishly like oops upset the wife, Kuroh sighs and says itâs difficult dealing with a useless husband, all while Neko looks between the two of them in confusion.
Munakata suggests they get back to the task at hand but Shiro thinks this is nice, isnât it good to just discuss personal things and get to know each other better sometimes. He wonders if Munakata has anyone heâs interested in and Munakata states that the only person occupying his thoughts regularly is a certain troublesome barbarian. Mikoto thinks thatâs an awfully nasty thing for Munakata to say but he gets it, heâs got a lot on his plate dealing with a stuffed shirt kind of guy who always gives lectures and canât admit that heâs wrong.
Shiro decides maybe he should change the subject before they start fighting and destroy his dorm, he looks around for a rescue and his eyes rest on Yata. Yata of course gets all red at the mention of romance, coughing and looking nervous as he admits well there is someone, this really amazing guy but heâs kinda hard to deal with and always oblivious about these kinds of things so itâs hard to talk to him. Fushimi clicks his tongue and says of course an idiot like Misaki wouldnât be able to handle anyone with more depth than a swimming pool and Yataâs like oh yeah well who do you like then. Fushimi snorts and says he doesnât care about stupid things like romance, but if he did maybe thereâs a sunshine idiot with a stupid smile out there that he could handle if that person ever stopped being a moron for one minute. Yataâs all surprised like wait so you do have a crush on someone who is it while Fushimi says thatâs none of Yataâs business and doesnât Yata have a crush on someone else too. Shiro also has to stop them before another fight can happen, even as he mutters under his breath âitâsâitâs really obvious for both of you, you know.â
Finally he turns to Awashima and Kusanagi, both of whom are drinking tea and waiting to get back to business talk. Shiro asks about who they like, surely Kusanagi is the type of person that gets a lot of attention. Kusanagi slowly looks up from his cup and then laughs a little as he admits that he and Awashima are already dating. Shiroâs actually caught off guard because hey someone said it right out, he tries to ask Awashima and she just calmly says âyes, weâre dating.â Thereâs a long silence as everyone collectively realizes that mature adults are really something huh.Â
#sarumi#Izuseri#Kuroshiro#Mikorei#Talking K#ah mature adults#what must that be like everyone is so amazed#like imagine just saying who you're dating XD#Shiro now regrets that he even asked everyone else#Neko started this but lost interest three couples ago and went to have some fish
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I wasn't kidding when I said I spent an hour just trying to sketch out the pose for this drawing! Sometimes you just gotta go through like 8 sketch layers to figure out what you're doing.
I also ended up looking at two references--this one from The Pose Archive, which I traced the legs from after struggling for a while to get proportions that looked right, and a photo of myself that I asked my roommate to take so I could figure out what to do with the arms. The process got significantly faster when I remembered I could use references and started working with them.
I think it's good to show some of the behind-the-scenes of your artwork every now and then, both because process is cool and because it removes some of the sheen of "whoa, i could never make that." I know I get discouraged at times by artists who "make it look easy," when really I can't see all the time and hard work that went into making something. I don't want to create that feeling for anyone else!
So, here's a glimpse into how much I struggled to get the pose right, and below is the timelapse where you can see how much I fiddled with the colors until I had something I was happy with. It was probably at least two hours of "i am spending way too much time on this" and "why does this still not look right" before I got to a point where I started thinking, "wow, this looks good." But I got there eventually, and I'm really happy I stuck it out!
#hmm what to tag this#stars wips#i've only used that for writing but it works#art process#i don't wanna be like 'obviously everyone must be comparing themselves to my amazing art' or anything lol#but i've been in that position and it sucks! i still compare myself to lots of artists who probably also feel insecure about their own art!#so it's important to me to stop every now and then and be clear about where I am#in terms of time and effort put in; in terms of materials; in terms of experience and education#so no one is trying to compare themselves to me and feeling that they come up short#when i spent five hours on something and they spent one; or when they're just starting out and i have multiple years of formal art educatio#because that is not a fair comparison! and at least for me it helps to know that#i'm so excited about how well this drawing turned out because i feel like it shows how much growth i've had recently#i do not think i could have made this (to the same level of quality) a year ago#let alone when i was younger and just starting out#anyway. i hope what i'm trying to do & say comes across here#and if you're just here cuz you like watching art timelapses i hope you enjoy it lol
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#tyranitar#this angle somehow reminds me of the one rat from flushed away. you guys know that one? does fucking anyone remember that movie#i feel like that movie was a bit of a fever dream. i never hear anyone talk about it but i remember vaguely liking it as a kid?#i can't fathom why. i don't remember it being a particularly *good* movieâ but that's also because i don't remember much about it in general#this is not about pokĂ©mon. here's tyranitar the one pokĂ©mon everyone thought was a legendary when they were a kid#i distinctly remember pokĂ©mon colosseum when the guy gives you the master ball he says âuse this on the legendaryâ or whatever#and i go ok. idk what that means but i will. and i thought this was it so i used my master ball on a tyranitar#which. not an amazing use for a master ball i must say! it's not a bad pokĂ©mon by any means but it's not a legendary#but it's all the way at the end of the johto dex with the legendaries so i really dunno y'all. it wants to be a legendary so bad
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Uh oh. Essay in readmore time
What's so frustrating is that for almost all of my life I didn't know I had adhd, and only found it out 5ish years ago
During ALL of my studies i was intensely freaked out and even when i got a grip on some of my mental health shit at uni, importantly I was still unaware of the adhd. And only had some professional tell me about their suspicion about it AFTER I could have received any support in my schooling.
And I have been working damn hard over the last half a decade to learn about myself and the way I work, and be kind to myself and open minded, and learnt from many many different people with adhd how they function - especially through advice on here bc much of Google is shit, and learnt what does and doesn't work for my personally.
I slowly unravelled and found myself. To a point where I'm actually functional and content in myself.
So now i find myself in the most intense, stressful period of my life since then. Grieving and finally understanding what people meant when they spoke about grieving a very close loved one. How nothing feels real even.
And I've found myself so extremely wired from having to do a very vast array of tasks all crammed into a short space of time with a close deadline - exactly the same conditions as during my studies.......... where nothing ever helped.
Yet. In the last thirty minutes I've unwound because I instinctively KNEW what to do. I found myself following all the things i taught myself about my adhd, and now I'm like 70% more chill???? Huh?????? Noticed suddenly that I've been using my ADHD self knowledge for the past few weeks and coped remarkably well because of it.
It's shocking because imagine what i could have done if I had ANY help with my adhd EVER in my life from the adults who were supposed to notice in my entire childhood. Like HUHHHHHH, I am shocked. Imagine how I'm here as an adult using 5 years of learning adhd related advice and stuff I learnt through self awareness .... and feeling better.
SHOCKING!!!!
PS - long ass tags that immediately ramble away from my initial post and go into something positive and that made me feel fluffy inside. You've been warned
#It's so fucking aggravating#i was a self contained child and didn't display the Expected ADHD traits or what fucking ever and so i got left to rot by the system#fantastic#sighhhhh but on the bright side - i am damn PROUD of myself tonight. I've come so far#It's very hard being neurodivergent and I'm doing amazing by own like standards#btw secret lore - first time i ever said aloud that i was proud of myself was in therapy like 6 years ago#and it was indescribably hard to get to that stuttered halting sentence 'i am proud of myself'. so hard and my therapist was so clearly#over the moon for me. i still treasure that memory and the path i have taken to being kind to myself and that's why every time i say#i am proud of myself#it holds the memory of every time I've ever said it or thought it and believed it#every time i see someone do something good i make sure to say well done because I'm proud of them too :-)#i do it apparently with such conviction and sincerety that people stop and stumble sometimes aha#i think it's beautiful to help people notice when they do well. like 'oh skipped work every day until today' - well done u made it today!!#'i cooked a meal and got it the way my mother makes it after many failed attempts' - well done you must have worked so hard#'i made a important phone call' (from friend who has told me before how much they struggle w calls) - BIG WELL DONE that must have been har#It's easy to notice and pay attention to people and congratulate them for these things that may not sound Big bc 'everyone else can do it'#as they say. or they are too busy to notice they did something that took effort on their part. It's so wonderful to make a difference#and hope they can be proud of themselves too in that moment#man this took a positive turn.... this is something I've not really said before. but it is truly so joyful to congratulate people to me
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I just saw someone choose BRENNER over Mike on a tiktok filter Imma go to bed now I've seen enough
#like ofc everyone is entitled to have their faves BUT AN ABUSER OVER SOME TRAUMATIZED KID?????#i- ok#i'm so ready for s5 to prove my boy's an amazing human being#like jesus#ppl who don't get mike's character must live such boring lives#mike wheeler#byler#mike wheeler i know what you are#michael wheeler i know what you are#stranger things#will byers#gay mike wheeler
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me when there's still a "mike wheeler is good and strong and brave, actually" moment in my mike stays in hawkins fic but it comes from dustin
#wip: butterflies and bullshit#dustin is the Mike Translator okay#he translated mike's feelings for him when they were 12 so he'd be even better now#they work together to make their ideas understandable to other people#dustin compliments mike's good ideas and seeks out his advice#dustin went all the way to the wheelers when dart turned out to be dangerous because he'd trust mike to know how to deal with it#even though he must have known that mike would've been insufferable about being right had he found him#like they're so. they're SO#they're so SWEET and SUPPORTIVE and i can't DEAL WITH IT#everyone trying to get on the invalidate mike train and dustin being like 'hey what the fuck' and defending him#and backing up his plan and his autonomy and his judgement#i am just. i am saying words. but i have so many#they're amazing#''well i call bull on your logic because you're my best friend too''#you all moved on but i'm still here#and then mike tried to literally die for dustin#i am just saying WORDS-#bnb posting
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JOMP book challenge: April edition
Day 30: Read in April
I finished this book maybe a week or so ago and I really enjoyed it, not the best book Iâve read - I donât mean this in a bad way. This was a really interesting book, the plot was well thought out and kept me engaged. I thought the characters were well written and realistic which was nice to read and another plus is I like Greek mythology - so definitely a book targeted to something I like. After reading this book, I donât think I will continue reading the series as I have other stuff I want to read but I might revisit it in the future or if I so happen to get a copy randomly. I would rate it 3.8-4.0/5 and would recommend giving it a read if you like Greek mythology :)
#jompbpc#justonemorepage#bookblr#booklr#bookish#gatherbeingbookish#gatherreads#gatherreviews#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson and the lightning thief#pjo#rick riordan#I also think there are quite a few books in the series too lol#just to clarify what I mean by not the best book#Iâve just seen over a long period of time so much hype for this series#like whenever book shorts come up on YouTube everyone references it đ
#so I thought to myself this must be this amazing out of this world book etc etc#but I didnât get that feeling of this is the best book in world#so thatâs what I mean#gatherrambles
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every day i thank god for the like. one or two japanese minedai artists who make mine the embodiment of đ„ș while also still making him. mine.
#snap chats#LIKE I LOVE A LOT OF MINEDAI ARTISTS DONT GET IT TWISTED at this point im very lenient because. im hungry#also a lot of the art genuinely is super perfect and amazing and Thank You God its just that theres a particular itch i get sometimes yk#its my favorite flavor..... and damn no body ever does it đđ#'what does it mean to be mine snap' it means he's mine. and he goes đ„șwhen daigos around. which is very mine but#you know what i mean. like he still does taxes and scares everyone but then daigo show up and he like :)#i never see mine dokidoki.... 'snap what the fuck does that mean' IF YOU KNOW YOU KNOW i dont have to explain myself....#i must see mine be swooned more... my life depends on it..#dis a shout out to all the people who make mine dokidoki actually.... like that anon who sent the fic.... youre my hero...#like may i be so bold.... may i be so forthcoming... daigo has mine whipped yet i always see mine as the instigator...#or more forward. if i may put it safe for the eyes of babies.#im pickyyyy i knowww its why im saying my praises now đ#in the worst twist of irony i wanna draw but not them. not rn anyway.#BLEH lemme write a bit and we'll see what happen anyway thats my minedai ramble for the month#oh god wait didnt i already do one of those. oh no the demons are gonna have my head for going over the quota
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Lmaoooo okay so MAJOR story spoilers ahead-
But I just finished the crisis at hyrule castle quest line (after thorough googling that I wasn't going into the final boss, of course) and went back to the landing where everyone gathered to discuss what to do next.
It was all very solemn and thoughtful, everyone theorising and letting it sink in how incredibly dangerous ganon was, and then purah and riju are like 'omg there was a sixth sage maybe we can find whatever they've left behind maybe it can help us' and then Link IMMEDIATELY speaks up like 'oh yeah about that I've already found her. Yeah she's fine she's going to help us. I've also got the master sword too by the way'.
Everyone was SHOOK. I got praise and amazement from all sides. Purah was like 'ALREADY???!! And you didn't think to TELL ME??' it was great.
Never felt more like canon link in my life. I've got a screenshot of everyone's :O?! face. Going to be riding that high for hours XD.
But it's very impressive that I managed to procrastinate so hard I managed to skip about three major plot lines just by squirrelling my way where I'm not supposed to be purely by accident lmao.
#totk spoilers#<- MAJOR ONES#loz#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#totk#loz totk#loz tears of the kingdom#Purah: I can't believe what we're up against. And how hard it must have been! But you're so calm and collected about it!#Me: aw thanks keep talking ^^#Purah: you're really a wonder link. I'm amazed by what you can do! It's up to us now! Let us help you!! âïž#Ngl finding the thunder head heart door was pure. PURE chance. It was night and I couldn't see the arrow head on links bow#Pouring rain and thunder. Somehow managed to blindly claw my way to the top of the ruin and spent ages trying to find out what it was#At the very last second before I left I slipped on the side of the wall and fell all the way down. Straight onto the shrine.#Eventually gathered the hearts and came right back to do the whole thing. No idea it was supposed to be a triggered quest until now LMAO#But fr everyone was so shaken after ganons vision and link was just standing there like đ he's already had a dozen of them XD#'pig man should have gone into theatre. Tryna play me with zelda when I know full well where she is. your precious phantoms were RUBBISH'#Seriously don't worry about the fight if you have the vows and decent armour I posed so silly and took several attacks to the spleen#And it did absolutely NOTHING. Several photos of link with phantoms furious heads in view and I lost MAYBE 3 hearts total. No anti gloom!!#I will say the image of broken doll zelda dissolving into gloom smoke will probably traumatise link but what's one more lol
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lots of people in this fandom CLAIM to love Gomez but when someone makes a post with Morticia as "Barbie is everything" and Gomez as "he's just Ken", it gets likes and reblogs
like...isn't that meme essentially saying "he's bland and boring/doesn't do anything interesting/is no good at anything and has nothing special about him, and no-one cares about him that much because he's just some bland generic guy with no personality beyond being a sidekick"?
do the majority of fans genuinely believe Gomez has no personality and no interesting traits?
#I really am starting to consider deleting all my fics and my Tumblr#because most of my planned WIPs focus on Gomez quite heavily#and I feel like no-one will care or want to read them because apparently everyone thinks he is dull and bland#I'm also assuming everyone I've ever talked to about him was secretly#thinking 'I wish this loser would stop going on about this boring character who no-one cares about'#'ugh they're pathetic he's the most generic bland guy on the planet why would anyone be a fan of him'#even if at the time people seemed interested I'm starting to think they must just have been pretending#because APPARENTLY the whole fandom thinks he's boring and useless and bland and stupid and has no personality#if I post any of my fics I'm worried I'll either get zero response because no-one likes or cares about Gomez#or I'll just get comments from people going 'give up and quit writing no-one cares about this stupid character he sucks and so do you'#I don't get why he's apparently seen as dull and boring when he swordfights and builds robots and blows things up but apparently he is?#I especially don't get it from Morticia fans tbh#because I don't think SHE'D actually like people calling Gomez dull and bland and forgettable and useless#she generally seems to believe he's amazing just as much as he believes she's amazing#but hey what do I know I'm clearly the only person in the fandom who finds him interesting#or thinks he has a personality or is anything more than Morticia's forgettable stupid sidekick#so I guess I'm just stupid and wrong about everything#and should stop writing fic because apparently I'm too stupid to understand the characters properly#and I'm just an idiot with bad taste and bad opinions#because if I was a true fan who understood the characters I'd think Gomez was boring and useless too like everyone else does#it's just not fun to know that everyone I thought was interested in my fics and headcanons was only pretending to be
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